Familes and babies|
Today i went to a Buddhist baby christening for my boyfriends co-workers 5 weeks old baby. We got there a little late. But it was still amazing. I was honored to be present to such a beautiful tradition. they all sat on the floor with a Buddhist monk chanting and giving the baby blessings. I didnt quite understand the whole thing. But at one point people including us (Mark and Zeli) tied a white string with money tied to it to the baby as a gift. The people there we so sweet and generous. Asain hospitality it great. They kept trying to feed us. Zeli had a great time. Usually she wants me to be next to her every second, but she wanted to play and all the women there kept telling me she will be fine and to just let her play. So Mark and I went to the other room and ate and mingled. It got me thinking of "family" and what means to me. All those people were there for this new life, this little tiny baby. To honor and bless him. It especially got me thinking of my own light growing in my womb. I have been so busy with work, going on vacation and family to really think about the baby. But since the last week and a half i can feel it moving around. Its a active little sweet potato ( that what we call it because its about that size) I got to hold the baby at the blessing and i absolutely melted. He is beautiful. I am amazed i am having another baby. I feel as if my life is finally falling into place. This time is so different. I am sharing this experience with my soulmate. He is so excited. Every morning we snuggle and he rubs my belly. He kisses my tummy and melts. Azeli is very excited she keeps telling me what we need for the baby. We have another ultra sound 11/16 and HOPEFULLY we will get to find out the gender. I am dieing to know so we can finally come up with a name we agree upon. Because we dont and its driving me crazy! I am planning for a water birth in the hospital. And am in the process of seeking advice from a doula. Because Azeli's birth ended in a c-section after 13 hours of hard labor, So his time because of that i cannot be induced and cannot go to far past my due date. And if i do i will have to have another c-section. So i want to talk to a doula about naturally helping labor happen and ways to have a easier birth.
I just feel grateful and blessed family. d for my family. My blood family and my close friends that i consider my family. Im life we have people come in and out of our lives. And just because there are not physically here with us it doesnt mean they are not in our hearts. I have great friends as far as Indonesia, Michigan, Idaho and California to name a few places. I love my friends and they have got me through some touch times. To all the ones who have never judged me and who have listened to me over the years. THANK YOU. I appreciate you and you will always be my family.
Current Location: my couch
Current Music: Dead Can Dance